When I’m walking around having fun I think, hey this would be a great blog post! Then when it’s quiet and I sit down to write I dont want to write. Plus there’s this annoying pounding noise thats driving me nuts from the apartment above me. And I feel like I forgot everything. You know what would be awesome? A device that can transcribe my thoughts. I’d buy that. Im sure doctors would too.

I had no time to blog/write because by the time I got home I was so tired I just wanted to sit. So now I’m home. It’s going to be a pain to try to remember what I wanted to blog about…Oh man I’m so lazy. Instead I’m going to take the easier route. It’s what everyone else has been doing blogging/posting/annoying me about so now it’s my turn. I actually couldn’t care less that it’s a new year. Just doesn’t seem that important to me. I know people say its like a new start, but every day is a new start if you want it to be.

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION

1. Stop being so damn lazy. I’m really lazy. Stop it Brenda.

2. Get straight As. I know this one sounds like something a typical asian/overachiever/lame goal but I’ve been slacking off in studies ever since I got to college. I haven’t really studied hard since high school. Sad. And I actually believe I can if I put some damn effort.

3.  Call mom at least every the other day. Call dad 3x a week. Skype with family 1x week. Email/chat sisters more often.

4. GYM. HAHAHA. No seriously, I will get my act together and go 5x a week. I will walk up to my room and not call up the elevator ( unless it’s really late at night and I’m exahusted or I’m carrying heavy stuff or the elevator is working) Joy we said we would do yoga/gym for 2 quarters now. WE MUST THIS YEAR.

5.  Eat right. I enjoy food a lot. But I use it wayyyy too much. As entertainment, as a stress reliever, as a social tool, whatever. I eat too much. And I dont eat healthy. Not because I want to live longer, but because it’s a crutch sometimes and I should just enjoy food as food. People, please stop me from eating so much. Just take it away from me, or eat it before I get to it. Or slap me! I give you permission to slap me if I’m eating too much. But I might slap back because taking away my food makes me mad.

6. When I speak let the words be positive and less of the bitching or verbal assaults I like to do. Language. I curse too much. I shall cut out the “damns” and the “fucks” and the other obscenities I like to use. Or just ugly words in general.  I keep the “shit” though. And “ass” because that is not a cuss word. It’s a donkey.

7. Read the Bible. READ THE BIBLE. BRENDA, YOU NEED TO READ THE BIBLE.

8. Stop disliking people because I dislike their personality. Stop being a bitch to people I dont like. Stop ignoring people I dont like. Stop being a bitch in general. Stop disliking people the moment I meet them. Stop judging them. Stop using Facebook so much. Stop being so irritable. Stop letting things irritate me. Be friendly and good-natured

9.  Let God be the foundation for all my endeavors.

10. Figure out and understand  JD/MBA programs. Preprare to study for GMAT and LSAT. I’m excited

11. Organize all my shit. Grace has graciously and repeatedly pointed out what a complete mess I am. I am a complete mess. Should not be.

12. Stop attempting to find boyfriend. Focus on friends, career, and life. I’m too crazy to be in a relationship….right now.Katie can attest to it, all the guys I like are A) Crap or B) Gay. That’s a problem. Besides I’d rather be successful than in a relationship. Why not both? Because I clearly cant even handle one let alone both.

13. Like church more. I dont mean going to Sunday Celebration. Like church more and it’s people, it’s gatherings, and it’s goal. I hope I dont offend anyone with this.

14. Stop talking so much. A lot of the stuff I say “is not worth replying to”(Jared Cho). I dont deny it, lots of the stuff I say is unnecessary or mean. I should talk a lot less, especially when I’m mad. Learn how to handle my emotions.

( wooooow. This is a lot of stuff)

15. Less Facebook. Seriously this thing is the devil.

16.  Quit being so loud. When my voice annoys me, I’m being wayyyy too loud. When people can tell I’m back because they hear me down the hall, I’m being too loud.

17. Go to Disneyland. I love that place so much. I would bring everyone there if I could and I will drag my family there all the time.

18. Find good internship for the SUMMER!!!

19. Sleep 8hrs a day, no later than 12-1. I really have no good reason for staying up late.

20. Have fun with life! Enjoy the little things, be content what I have, forget what I’m potentially missing out on, ignore what I dont have, rethink what I want, love the people I’m with. Think less.

Man, this is going to be a hard set of 20 things to do (except for #20). I would appreciate it a lot if you guys could keep me in check (specially with that food one). I hope everyone has a great new years. I’ll be celebrating the change at church. Actually I’d celebrate it at home in my PJ’s and a crap load of junkfood if I could but my dad insists on church. Not that I dont want to be in a house of God on new years eve. But that I feel awkward when I see people I know from the youth group. I havent gone back to church since the end of middle school because I dont like my church’s english/youth group. Most of them are nice people but uh…very different lifestyles and perspectives.

I love being home with family. Best Christmas present ever.